Plenty

There's a lot of things in my mind right now.
Plenty.

Mixed feelings. Emotions.
Plenty.

I'm feeling anger, madness, sad, upset, happy, calm, etc.
Plenty.

I've been thinking a lot.
I don't think it is enough, but so far?
Well, i did try to write down about it.
Which could just mean that i'm trying to get over it.

(If that makes sense to you.)
(Who the hell cares anyways.)
(This is my place to write.)
(And a place where i write down whatever it is that i feel.)

I wonder,
Why is it when i'm being nice to people, they fuck me right back?
FYI, I am genuinely being nice and care for people.
Though i might not show it like how people expect me to, but trust me, i do.

As mentioned in my previous note;
"buat baik, salah. buat jahat, salah. baik buat bodoh"
(or something like that. i dont care. haha. sue me.)

Which is why now, i choose not to care about people.

But don't get the wrong idea.
I still care for other MORE IMPORTANT people in my life.

Important people like Doreen.
I haven't met any girl that calms me down and makes me happy in an instant like how Doreen does.
She is the most UNDERSTANDING, LOVING, CARING, and CUTEST individual that i have ever come across.
I don't know what will become of me if i ever lose sight of her.
Think whatever and however you want.
I don't care.
I love Doreen.

This is going to be one hell of a post.
So i will end it here.
And continue again....whenever it is i feel like doing so.

Cheers,
Don Paulie.