I'm the goddamn Batman

Haven't been updating regularly again.
All due to the fact that i have soooooo much work. Damn.

Well, here's an update for you.

I'm getting fat.

I need to workout.
To get fit again.
I need a source of inspiration.
A NEW source of inspiration.







I am not joking.

Commence Operation Batman

Hungry

Hungry.

Kids all around the world are starving.

They get happy when donations roll in.
A plate of rice.
Vegetables.
Etc.
And that's when they're lucky to receive some.

And me?

I'm hungry.
Yet i have buckets of rice.
More vegetables than i can ever eat.
Etc.
Yet i am still not happy.

You get what i'm trying to say?

What's that?


No?

No?

No?

NO?

NO?

!!!



...

Me too.

Gonna eat pistachio peanuts now & workout
& watch Military Monday on National Geographic.
Fuck yeah!

Emo Elmo

Izzat called me emo.
Cilaka lu weyh! HAHA.

Well, i can't help it.
I don't respond well under stress or pressure.
I can't think straight when i am angry or sad.
I have a tendency to snap when i'm angry.
I have a tendency be very violent when i'm angry.

My temper is my number one enemy.
And i can't fucking control it.

Think i'm a boy that can't solve my own problems?
Here's for you :

FUCK YOU.

I've been trying to control my temper ever since i was in high school.
I'm in college now and i'm still trying.

I've been doing a lot of thinking.
Do i need therapy? Anger management?
Am i insane?
I guess i am.

Plenty

There's a lot of things in my mind right now.
Plenty.

Mixed feelings. Emotions.
Plenty.

I'm feeling anger, madness, sad, upset, happy, calm, etc.
Plenty.

Do i think too much?
Do i care too much?

I feel like i can't help anyone.
But i try to make them feel better, at least.
I ask them "is everything okay?" and stuff like that.
I understand that some people do not want to trouble others.
Or need some time to sort things out on their own.

But.

That's another problem of mine.
I can't ignore that.
A person who you really love, would you let the person be and "sort things out"?
I don't know whether it's logic, or common sense or whatnot.
But i don't think i wanna leave the person all alone by himself/herself.

And yet, ANOTHER problem of mine.
I get angry easily.
Should i really elaborate at this point?
I don't think so.
Lazy.

And another one i found in my folder.
Mmm~

Finicky

Call me finicky.
I know i am.
I care too much about things.
I don't think its OCD.
But finicky is more like it.

Is it too much to ask for one to return back kindness?

Am i too nice towards people that people can just run me over
and expect that i would forgive them just like that?

Did i commit a crime so hideous that i deserve such treatment from people?

All i ever wanted was,
to be respected by people.
to be loved by people.

And so to achieve such things, i want to do only good things for people.
But

WHY?
WHY?
WHY?
WHY?

WHY DON'T ANYBODY CARE?
ALL I SEEK IS A LITTLE "THANK YOU".
OR AT LEAST SAY HELLO PROPERLY.
WHEN I CALL YOU, GIVE A GOOD RESPONSE.
WHEN I MSG, REPLY PROPERLY.

I am always thinking about other people. Or at least i try to.
When someone calls, i'll pick up the phone.
When someone msgs, i'll reply.
When someone says hi, i'll say back with full vigor.

Is it too hard for such things to happen?

Life is a bitch. True.

I found this in my folder.
Mmm.

Don't Cry

Talk to me softly
There's something in your eyes
Don't hang your head in sorrow
And please don't cry
I know how you feel inside I've
I've been there before
Something's changing inside you
And don't you know

Don't you cry tonight
I still love you baby
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight

Give me a whisper
And give me a sigh
Give me a kiss before you tell me goodbye
Don't you take it so hard now
And please don't take it so bad
I'll still be thinking of you
And the times we had...baby

And don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight

And please remember that I never lied
And please remember how I felt inside now honey
You got to make it your own way
But you'll be alright now sugar
You'll feel better tomorrow
Come the morning light now baby

And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry tonight
Baby maybe someday
Don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry
Tonight

Don't Cry - Guns N' Roses.
Mmm~

Update

Lack of any serious updates.

Because!

1) I find Twitter is easier.
2) Too time-consuming to write lengthy posts in Blogspot.
3) Lazy. Hahahaha.

Patience

Patience

the state of endurance under difficult circumstances, which can mean persevering in the face of delay or provocation without becoming annoyed or upset; or exhibiting forbearance when under strain, especially when faced with longer-term difficulties. It is also used to refer to the character trait of being steadfast.

Quotes
Learn the art of patience. Apply discipline to your thoughts when they become anxious over the outcome of a goal. Impatience breeds anxiety, fear, discouragement and failure. Patience creates confidence, decisiveness, and a rational outlook, which eventually leads to success.
-Brian Adam

There will be a time when loud-mouthed, incompetent people seem to be getting the best of you. When that happens, you only have to be patient and wait for them to self destruct. It never fails.
-Richard Rybolt

Patience is the best remedy for every trouble.
-Titus Maccius Plautus


sources :-
http://www.quotationspage.com/subjects/patience/
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Patience

House

My dream home would feature this kind of stuffs.

Dining room.


Kitchen.


Living room.


Entertainment room.


Bedroom

Yngwie Malmsteen - Like An Angel

Disenchanted

Well I was there on the day
They sold the cause for the queen,
And when the lights all went out
We watched our lives on the screen.
I hate the ending myself,
But it started with an alright scene.

It was the roar of the crowd
That gave me heartache to sing.
It was a lie when they smiled
And said, "you won't feel a thing"
And as we ran from the cops
We laughed so hard it would sting

Yeah yeah, oh

If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing.

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya

I spent my high school career
Spit on and shoved to agree
So I could watch all my heroes
Sell a car on tv
Bring out the old guillotine
We'll show 'em what we all mean.

Yeah yeah, oh

If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter long after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing.

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya
So go, go away, just go, run away.
But where did you run to? And where did you hide?
Go find another way, price you pay

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya, come on

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya

At all.

My Chemical Romance - Disenchanted.



It's been a while since i played this song.
My favourite song. From my favourite band.

A-OK

You Are an "A-OK"

Your life philosophy can be summed up as, "Whatever will be, will be." Your greatest wish is to live each day a little better than the next. You are naturally calm and stable. Some people would call you a rock. You feel one with the world. You are a spiritual person, though no one who knows you would guess it.

What Hand Gesture Are You?

Blogthings: A Fine Line Between Insight and Stupidity

Round Round

People and things that make my world go round.
(Not in order)

and...





Mmm~


Those who are not here, i'm sorry. But i shall. Hahaha.

Popo

"Stop doubting your own abilities and start listening with your mind. Calm your thoughts"

Mr.Popo - DragonBall

Wonderful quote.

The Unforgiven

New blood joins this earth
And quickly he's subdued
Through constant pained disgrace
The young boy learns their rules

With time the child draws in
This whipping boy done wrong
Deprived of all his thoughts
The young man strugggles on and on he's known
A vow unto his own
That never from this day
His will they'll take away

What i've felt
What i've known
Never shined through in what i've shown
Never be
Never see
Won't see what might have been
What i've felt
What i've known
Never shined through in what i've shown
Never free
Never me
So i dub thee unforgiven

They dedicate their lives
To running all of his
He tries to please then all
This bitter man he is
Throughout his life the same
He's battled constantly
This fight he cannot win
A tired man they see no longer cares
The old man then prepares
To die regretfully
That old man here is me

What i've felt
What i've known
Never shined through in what i've shown
Never be
Never see
Won't see what might have been
What i've felt
What i've known
Never shined through in what i've shown
Never free
Never me
So i dub thee unforgiven

You labeled me
I'll label you
So i dub thee unforgiven

Metallica - The Unforgiven



I love this song.
The most played song in my iTunes.

Cold

I feel cold.

Am i?

Never Done

"Growth is painful,
Change is hard,
And there are days where we would wish that it would just stop.

Wouldn't it be great to just know,
To feel like you finally figured it all out,
To just be done.

It's the hardest and most wonderful thing about being alive,
That no matter how much you learn, grow or change,
You're never done.

Cheers."

Never Done, from Izzat.
Nice one, matey.

Aku suka sangat "poem" kau buat tu sampai aku repost kat sini.
HAHAHA.
Gua sayang sama lu.
Babi gay sial kau.

Fark!

Just got back home from Ipoh.

Going to Melaka tomorrow.

Tired as fuck.

Stomachache like fuck.

Bored like fuck.

Fuck!

Hahahaha.

H.A.T.E

Mood swing.
Anger.
Rage.
Sadness.
Guilt.

I hate all of the above.
Especially when it all mixes.

---

And now...i am relieved as hell.
:D I love you, sayang.

Aidilfitri

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri kepada semua rakan-rakanku serta semua umat Islam sedunia.
Semoga Tuhan panjangkan umur dan apa-apa lagi yang boleh dipanjangkan.
Semoga juga anda maafkan segala dosaku serta apa-apa lagi yang buruk.

Tetapi kepada anda yang pukimak.
PEGI MAMPUS.
Betul. Saya masih tidak memaafkan anda.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri kepada semua rakan-rakanku serta semua umat Islam sedunia.

SAYA SAYANG ANDA SEMUA.
And i love you, Doreen. So very much.

Cheers.