Plenty

There's a lot of things in my mind right now.
Plenty.

Mixed feelings. Emotions.
Plenty.

I'm feeling anger, madness, sad, upset, happy, calm, etc.
Plenty.

Do i think too much?
Do i care too much?

I feel like i can't help anyone.
But i try to make them feel better, at least.
I ask them "is everything okay?" and stuff like that.
I understand that some people do not want to trouble others.
Or need some time to sort things out on their own.

But.

That's another problem of mine.
I can't ignore that.
A person who you really love, would you let the person be and "sort things out"?
I don't know whether it's logic, or common sense or whatnot.
But i don't think i wanna leave the person all alone by himself/herself.

And yet, ANOTHER problem of mine.
I get angry easily.
Should i really elaborate at this point?
I don't think so.
Lazy.

And another one i found in my folder.
Mmm~

Finicky

Call me finicky.
I know i am.
I care too much about things.
I don't think its OCD.
But finicky is more like it.

Is it too much to ask for one to return back kindness?

Am i too nice towards people that people can just run me over
and expect that i would forgive them just like that?

Did i commit a crime so hideous that i deserve such treatment from people?

All i ever wanted was,
to be respected by people.
to be loved by people.

And so to achieve such things, i want to do only good things for people.
But

WHY?
WHY?
WHY?
WHY?

WHY DON'T ANYBODY CARE?
ALL I SEEK IS A LITTLE "THANK YOU".
OR AT LEAST SAY HELLO PROPERLY.
WHEN I CALL YOU, GIVE A GOOD RESPONSE.
WHEN I MSG, REPLY PROPERLY.

I am always thinking about other people. Or at least i try to.
When someone calls, i'll pick up the phone.
When someone msgs, i'll reply.
When someone says hi, i'll say back with full vigor.

Is it too hard for such things to happen?

Life is a bitch. True.

I found this in my folder.
Mmm.

Don't Cry

Talk to me softly
There's something in your eyes
Don't hang your head in sorrow
And please don't cry
I know how you feel inside I've
I've been there before
Something's changing inside you
And don't you know

Don't you cry tonight
I still love you baby
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight

Give me a whisper
And give me a sigh
Give me a kiss before you tell me goodbye
Don't you take it so hard now
And please don't take it so bad
I'll still be thinking of you
And the times we had...baby

And don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight

And please remember that I never lied
And please remember how I felt inside now honey
You got to make it your own way
But you'll be alright now sugar
You'll feel better tomorrow
Come the morning light now baby

And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry tonight
Baby maybe someday
Don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry
Tonight

Don't Cry - Guns N' Roses.
Mmm~

Am i an idiot?
Am i over-protective?
Am i good enough?
Am i bad towards a person?

I have so many questions in my head.
And i can't seem to find the answers.

I must have done something very terrible in my life to even deserve something like this.

I'm sorry.

Unappreciated.