I'm sorry

I am so sorry.
I hate hurting your feelings.
I never want to do that.
I love you.
And i DON'T want to ever fucking hurt you in any possible way.

But i guess i was too full of myself.
And didn't think of you while i hurt you unknowingly.

This is usually the moment when i throw my laptop at the wall.
But i don't do that anymore.
Hell. I don't even get angry often anymore.

Why?
Because of you.
I don't ever want you to see me angry.
It's such an ugly sight of me that i don't want you to see.
Yes, even I know about it.

You have inspired me to change.
You have inspired me to be more responsible.
You have inspired me to be a better person in this fucked up life of mine.

I don't ever want to screw this up.

I don't want to lose you.

I love you.

And I'm sorry.