Washing Machine

This blog just went through the washing machine.

It's now white.

And very clean and simple.

And i love Doreen.

:D

I'm being random now. Thanks to sayang. :D:D

Guitar

Guitar is my life.
I love playing guitar.
I used to play guitar non-stop for hours.

Doreen sayang even said to me once :

"my rival for your attention is the guitar."

Don't worry sayang. I still love you. :D
And i mean that very much. =*

Now....


Yngwie Malmsteen Fender Signature.
I want this guitar.


And this t-shirt


Slash. My guitar idol.
Mmmm~
:D:D:D:D:D:D

Have a nice day.

EDIT.

I added this music player thing at the bottom of my blog.
Nice eh?
Hehehe.

Mmm~

Mmm~
Mmm~
Mmm~
Mmm~

:)



Sayang. You would look beautiful in this. :)
MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.
Very nice, right?
If you call me gay for posting this, i shall kill you.
Don't think i won't.
MUAHAHA.

:p

Unfairground

I hate to be angry.
Seriously i do.
But there is always a certain something in my day to make me very pissed.
Or someone.

Today wasn't a very good day.
In fact, a very bad day.
Fucked up day, to be honest.
I don't like it at all.

Life isn't fair.
I get the blame.
I get the hate.
I get everything bad.
My life seems so fucked up.

Thankfully, there are those bunch of people in my life that i really appreciate and love.
That would still support me.
That would still cheer me up.
I love you, sayang. Thanks for still being by my side. :)
Now i think life is good again.

Bottom

Is this how you want me to live my life?

Wake up miserably.
Brush teeth miserably.
Bathe miserably.
Go to work miserably.
Listen to the boss miserably.
Do my work miserably.
Sit at the table miserably.
Go for break miserably.
Do my work again miserably.
Sit at the table again miserably.
Go back home miserably.
Rest (if i ever get one) miserably.
Eat miserably.
Sleep miserably.

IS THIS HOW YOU WANT ME TO FUCKING LIVE MY LIFE?
I DO NOT WANT TO LIVE THIS KIND OF LIFE.

I WANT TO BE FREE.
AND DO MY OWN FUCKING THING.
I KNOW YOU WANT ME TO HAVE THE BEST.
BUT PLEASE, FOR GOD SAKE, PLEASE.
LET ME FIND THEM MYSELF.


FUCK YOU.



Haha. Now i feel much better.
If you're reading this, sorry for the rowdy post, sayang.

I am getting annoyed with some shit. You know what shit it is.
It's really fucking annoying sometimes.

('_')

I feel weird.
Not sure what it's about.
But let's not get angry, shall we?
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. in case you're wondering, i just feel like typing that.
:)>:(
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I'm having a good morning now.
Seeing you online puts and instant smile on my face, sayang.
Nuggets for breakfast.
I love you. I miss you so much.
And Koko Krunch. MMM~
I wish i can see you now, sayang. :*


And i just got to call you.
Life seems so perfect now. :):):):):):):)
I love you, sayang.






Sayang, can i have keep my beard this long?
HAHAHAHA. :D:D:D:D:D:D

Revenge Of The Fallen

Today was movie day with Brother Syameel, Satish Lion, Rodney Lolo, and Cedric Diggory.

I don't care what you say about this movie.

Transformers : Revenge Of The Fallen



GO WATCH IT.
BLOODY FREAKING AWESOME.

And my favourite robot ever is as awesome as ever.

IRONHIDE.



After that, we had this nonsense shisha.
Which cost us RM40.
RM40 for a bloody shisha?
UGH!

Now i am tired. Kinda tired.
I want to talk to my sayang now.
I love her and i miss her so much.
BYE. :)

143

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

-seize the day-
-avenged sevenfold-

I'm already missing the both of my two bestest friends.
And i miss my sayang.
I love you, sayang. I really really do. :) You make my world go round.
:):)

...

That's how i'm feeling now.

"................."
FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK.
:/

But i want to say thanks to my love, Doreen.
I love you, sayang. I really do. Talking to you makes me very calm.
:)

:-)

❀ doreen says:
syg
=))))
yes


Am i happy?
Yes i am.
From the bottom of my heart, i love you sayang.

:)

Fall To Pieces

It's been a long year
Since you've been gone
I've been alone here
I've grown old
I fall to pieces, I'm falling
Fell to pieces and I'm still falling

I keep a journal of memories
I'm feeling lonely, I can't breathe
I fall to pieces, I'm falling
Fell to pieces and I'm still falling

All the years I've tried
With more to go
Will the memories die
I'm waiting
Will I find you
Can I find you
We're falling down
I'm falling

Every time I'm falling down
All alone I fall to pieces

Fall To Pieces - Velvet Revolver.
Damn nice song.
I LOVE IT.
I dedicate this song to you, sayang. :)
I love you so much.
Peace.

Kanna Curry House II

Your existence makes me the happiest person in the world.
And the fact that my hand has healed 80% makes life even nicer.







Kanna Curry House.
God bless you.
HAHAHA.

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I love you, sayang. :)
You mean the world to me.

Ecstacy

You really are my ecstacy.

:D

I am on cloud nine.
i love you so much, sayang.
Even though i prefer Snickers.
thanks for today.
Lame joke.
:D:D:D:D:D
I don't give a damn.

HAHA.

Ventilation

I need new ways to vent out my anger.

My old angry self is coming back out.
And damn i hate it.



Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why.
no worries, sayang. it has nothing to do with you. :)



One big shout-out before this post ends.

FUCK

:/

Mmm.

I don't feel good.
Sorry sayang. :(

Smile.

Wake up.

Check my phone.
Read your previous sms'.
Smile.

Get off the bed.

Check my laptop.
Read the convo history and your MSN status.
Smile.

Life is good.
I love you, sayang.

:D

The shit is finally clear.

And life is good.

Seriously.

I love my life.

And i love everyone in my life.

Thanks for making me feel good, sayang.

I love you.

:D

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I feel like i'm on cloud nine right now.
Life is too good to be true.
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

Reasons To Smile

"when you said you had to leave, i didn't want you to leave"

I'm smiling.

I'm the happiest person alive right now.

Heaven And Hell.

One look at my face and you see Hell.

One look at my heart and you see Heaven.









what kind of poem is this?
i dunno. i don't care.
i thought of it suddenly and felt like writing it down before i forget.
hahahaha.

Suffocation.

I had a wonderful day today.
Went to see the Gen-2 CPS.
And father might wanna sell the Saga.
Mixed feelings came. But i'm cool with that.




The Gen-2 CPS




My Saga.



And i'm married to Doreen.
Sayang, i will remember this day until i die. Muahahaha. :D
And i have yet to get you a wedding ring. HAHA.
Sooner or later before you go back Kuching, sayang. :P

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I don't feel too good. I'm quiet. I'm restless. My hands are shaking. What the fuck.


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edit

Gee. Thanks ma.
What a way to start killing my hopes for a new car.

Marriage.

Doreen is married to Haris Ahmad. · Comment · Like
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Yay!

HAHA.

:D

Chicken Ham

Today is a nice day.

A lot of shit got cleared up.
A lot of nonsense got cleared up.
A lot of crap got cleared up.

Basically, everything bad got cleared up.

And i actually refrained myself from doing stupid things which i might regret later on.
This always make me feel so damn good about myself.

Today is a nice day.

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I wanna go to Old Town again. The toast and chicken ham i had was oh-so-MMMM~~~

What.

Had a so-so day. Hehehe. ;)

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I know that you know about this blog.
Feel free to read it.
I don't hide anything in here.
I tell almost everything in here.
Feel free to comment as well.

Smile.

What is this feeling?

It feels very good.
It feels as though someone opened my pants. wtf

Hell yeah.

A HUGE load in my mind has been taken out.

And i am glad to be glad for feeling glad because i am bad. wtf.

I have said whatever i need to say.
I have told whatever i need to tell.

And now i'm smiling.
Again.

:)



colorful circles of life

Remember

Wonderful day today.

Went to Domain. Ida printed some stuff.
Bought pizza for my Doreen sayang. (sorry for the wrong choice of pizza, sayang!hehehe)
Had my share of Diet Coke.

Highlight of the day?

Went SHISHA with Brother Felix and Salma.
Ate some good Iranian food.

And the SHISHA?

LLLLAAAAYYYYAAAANNNN.

I sent gibberish to Doreen sayang.

SMS 1) Dingdingdingding.
SMS 2) Layan to the ultimate. Nga nga nga nga.
SMS 3) Admtpg.atg.adtatgatg.a.a
SMS 4) Yes i am, sayang. I am high to fly like a fly who's so high that it might just die.



Me and Doreen sayang.
:D




and the rest of the fucking nonsense?
I rather not talk about it.
I'm surrounded by idiots.except for my Doreen sayang la of course.and a few other people.
right now i malas wanna layan a lot of people.

except of course, my wife Doreen and a few peeps here there. you rock my little world.

Fear No Evil.

Tun M. came to college.
So basically there was not much stuff to do but lepak. But that's what we do most of the time anyways.
Layaned Hed Kandi in my Brother's car. Fucking layannnnnnn~~

70% of my day is very good, happy and chilled.
I get to see my Doreen sayang.
(Brenda, if you're reading this...i'll just say "bluek")HAHA.


Here's what happened to the 30% :

1) Please have some courtesy and respect.
I don't care that you drink. But have some courtesy. Please.
Bad enough that you gave him some of that shit, and then you drink in my car.
Seriously, i don't mind you drinking. But please. R-E-S-P-E-C-T!
Come on. The other day The Lion drank, EVEN HE SAID SORRY TO ME. I forgave him.
You? No nothing.
Yes i am fucking sensitive when people drink in front of me.

2) Been thinking. Would you date a person if you already know that all that person want is to fuck? That's just low. Seriously. Even i wouldn't do that. The best part? You can still say that the both of youse are nothing. Right. Wait until you get hurt. Don't say i didn't warn you. Don't blame me or anybody. Blame yourself.

3) Thinking again. I care about people. I do. But all this nonsense is making me feel as though i have changed. As in i malas wanna care about anything now. Have i changed?

Ain't life just too good to be true?
:D

No worries. I'm still in a good mood. =D

Wife(s)

I had a very interesting chat with my good friend, Brenda.

I totally forgot that during school, she's married to me. HAHA. (dont kill me when you read this, bren).

And just now, i showed her my blog.
And she asked me.

"you got sayang?"
"WHO?"
"who's this 2nd wife of yours?"
"who's Doreen?"
"2nd wife without telling me?"
"start confessing now!"
"smart ass. a secret wife you've had since you were 15"
"now only gonna tell her?!"

Why do i feel like i'm gonna get killed soon?
HAHAHAHA.

Doreen sayang, HELP ME.
HAHAHA!

p.s: this is a sign. i should not have more than 1 wife. HAHAHAHA

Punk

Stupid idiot.

Don't make my hands fly to your bighead.

Hawaiian Supreme.

I had Koko Krunch this morning.



I had Hawaiian Supreme pizza for lunch. And a bloody load of other food.



I had durian during tea.





God knows what i'll be eating for dinner.

Life is good. Hehehe.

---

My wife is a mass murderer, ghostbuster and a mental patient.
I love my wife. Hahahahahahahahahahahaha.

---

My head is like spinning. Thinking a lot about stuff.
But i'm fine. :)

Taggie

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People. (but don't say their names)

01. Please. I used to love you. But i don't know what's happening now. I just want you to think wisely about HIM. He's not into you. He wants something else. Can't you see? You care for me, but why are you still doing all these things if you do care about me? It's not that i'm controlling you, but it's because i care about you.

02. I love you from the bottom of my little black heart. Never have a person made me do or say such things. I really respect your style and the way you do things. And you never failed to make me smile. Thank you, sayang.

03. You are my brother. We think alike. We do the same things. I respect you, brother. I love you, matey.

04. I will always be there for you, matey. No matter what happens, i'll be more than willing to help. Brotherhood for life.

05. Pick up your bloody phone! HAHA. But brother, i love you from the heart of my bottom.

06. I like you. I really do. But damn, i haven't got the chance to tell you that.

07. Lay your fucking hands off her. You don't even deserve to talk to her. But what can i do? I've got no rights to say anything about it. She likes you. But you're a fucking scum. nuff said.

08. Brother, you have my respect. You have my loyalty. But maybe you need to change the way you do things a little bit? That's all i've gotta say about you.

09. You're a nice person, i'll admit that. But something about you needs changing. Maybe your annoyance? It's bugging me slightly.

10. Learn manners. Proper ones. And use your bighead to think wisely next time.

Nine things about myself.

01. I love working out.
02. I eat a lot. And try to lose it when i workout.
03. I play guitar. Metallica and Slipknot, baby.
04. I listen to songs. All kinds of them. But some songs can really affect my mood.
05. I have a weird sense of mood. I get mood swings easily.
06. It's easy to tell when i'm hungry or angry. I get eerily quiet.
07. I love people.
08. I have a teddy bear on my bed.
09. I...

Eight ways to win my heart.

01. Be comfortable with yourself.
02. Be confident with yourself.
03. Treat me with respect.
04. Able to make me laugh.
05. Being honest towards me. I don't mind secrets. But not when there's plenty of them.
06. Able to accept who i am and the way i do things.
07. Confident.
08. Being yourself. This turns me on. Hehehe.

Seven things that cross my mind a lot.

01. The future.
02. My wife, Doreen.
03. My fellow brothers and partners in crime. Haha!
04. The song Fade To Black from Metallica.
05. Gibson Les Paul Custom. Yes. I fantasize about guitars.
06. My rabbits.
07. My hand (currently)

Six things I do before I fall asleep.

01. Turn off the lights.
02. House music.
03. Slow ballads.
04. Brush my teeth.
05. Place my phone beside the pillow.
06. Pull my blanket.

Five people or groups who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).

01. Family
02. My brothers.
03. Doreen sayang.
04. Sherry.
05. My friends.

Four things you're wearing right now.

01. Blanket.
02. Singlet.
03. Boxers.
04. ummm...

Three songs that you listen to often.

01. Fade to Black - Metallica
02. Before I Forget - Slipknot
03. Just Breathe - Telepopmusik

Two things you want to do before you die.

01. Get married and have a son and a daughter.
02. Sleep with Eva Angelina. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

One confession.

01. I look at guy's body. What?

Love.

Aiman says:
AHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
fuck lar u
hahhaahhahaahhahaha
takleh blah sial

Don Paulie says:
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAA

Aiman says:
gua rasa bf die pun tak camtu
ko mmg adorable la setan
hahahhahaha

Don Paulie says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA


Conversation with my brother from another mother, Aiman.
Life is good.
I love my life.
I love the people around my life.
I love you.
Hehe.
:D

---

"there's a sense of security when you pegang my hand"

You do know that these words cheers me up, right?
:D
I love my Doreen sayang.

...

I know you sakit hati seeing me like this.
I know you don't want to see me like this.

And i'm sorry that i disappointed you.

I really am.

The Way I Am.

Let me tell you something about myself.

-I don't care much about what people say about me.
-I don't care much about things i hate.
-I hate people who bitch behind my back.
-I hate people who don't tell me what's their problem against me.
-I don't mind listening to rants. But not when it comes to choosing sides. I don't pick a side.
-I was an angry kid. I could still be if things go the way it's going.

I am the way i am.

Sorry for the angry post.
Well, i am angry and mad right now.

Things are fucked up.

When you say you care about someone, would you still go and do the shit that the person warned you about?
fuck that.
i dont wanna lose my temper again. but i know i just might.

HAHAHAHAHA.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I so can't wait for tomorrow.

♥ doreen says:
uh huh
hahaha, so tmrw supposedly you'll be her bf and i'll be her lesbo partner
awesome

HAHAHA!

Sometimes, it's nice to do crazy things.

Hehehehehe.

Kanna Curry House

Ignore my post before. That's what i call a "rant post"
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Kanna Curry House floats my boat.
Bloody good food.
If only my bloody hand wasn't bandaged. Then i would have had the TIME OF MY LIFE.
Curry.
Fish curry.
More curry.



"Boss. Semua taruh atas."

Phwoooaaarr. Life is good in Malaysia. :D

And the best part?
I had a fun and good day today.
No drama. No nothing. Just pure fun.
I think.


Now i'm hungry again.

All Hope Is Gone

The state of the nation, violation
A broken promise is as good as a lie
The hell is humongous, the devil's among us
And we will burn because we won't unite

We won't witness anymore freedom
What does anybody do we need 'em?
I would rather fight than let another die
We're the problem but we're also the solution

If you want you cannot take it from me
If you think you can you still don't know me
Let me tell you, when I said it I meant it
And I will always have the right to defend it

Fifty seconds, a hundred murders
The bill of rights is a bill of sale
What will you do when the war is over?
What will you do when your system fails?

The wretched are the wounded
The hungry starved to death
At a place where no-one goes
The air itself is a final breathe

So discontinue
The antiseptic cash charade
As the cry of justice comes
I'm gonna let this fire free

I am the reason your future suffers
I am the hatred you won't embrace
I am the worm of a pure distinction
I am the remedy, spit in my face

All your lies and wars are out-dated
All your subjects are dulling mind games
I can let all of another million reasons why
But doesn't matter when the only thing will never die

We have made the present, obsolete
What do you want? What do you need?
We'll find a way when all hope is gone
We've seen the fall of the elite
Bury your life, sink your disease
We'll end the world when all hope is gone

When all hope is gone



Slipknot - All Hope Is Gone

This goes to the people that pisses me at times.

82%

♥ doreen says:
hahahahaha
no
my husband is 82% sexyyyyy
hahahahahahaha


I'm proud to have her as my wife.
HAHAHAHAHA.

Me love Doreen sayang.

The Unforgiven

My guitar is still sitting around on the guitar stand.
I want to play it. BUT...my hand has yet to recover fully.
And doreen will kick me around if i play it. HAHA.

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I'M TIRED. GODDAMMIT.
Tired with everything.

Argh.

---

Thanks for still believing in me, Ida!
:D

Do Your Thang

Had sushi today.
MY CRAVING FOR THEM IS FINALLY GONE. Hell yeah.


Unagi. mmm~

And had 2 photoshoots today.
One with Rodney. (check out his facebook for photos)
And one with Ida.

And today is a happy day.
Hehehehe.

I need my guitar.
But doreen sayang will kill me if i play them. Ngeh.
HAHA.

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Go do your own thing.
I care about you. But i'm not sure whether you care or not.
So now, it's better if don't care about you.

You broke your own rules.
How can i help you if you can't help yourself?
I've got no rights to say anything about the relationship.
But i will just say this ;

Think wisely.